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22-03-09

2009-03-22T12:10:00.000+08:00

celebrated jacky's birthday yesterday. was my off day. had driving lesson at 11.30am, was very nervous because i scare of many cars. drive through the main road make me panting. even after my lesson, my heart beats very fast still.

went to pick jacky's cake prima deli kovan, met that jerk there. he came and pick me up. suddenly he's so nice say he wanna see me.. i think maybe his wife didnt go find him that's why so nice. then he drove me to pick up my son and send me home.

about 4plus, my son and i set off with my bro to pick up baokun. aloy had his father sent him to my cousin's place. we all met there and took a bus to suntec city. had an early dinner. walked around abit then we decided to celebrate at the water fountain but it was still raining so end up we celebrate in KFC. then my bro they got some snacks to bite and drinks as well so they wont chase us out. haha.

23-02-09

2009-02-23T23:49:00.001+08:00

took mc today. dont feel like going to work, feel darn pissed with work and stuff. anyway tomorrow is my off day.

meet cheyenne and ailing at bugis for dinner, stretches. hmmm.. they have got gd pasta and pizzas. for people who like to eat italian food, i would recommend stretches at busgis junction level facing opp. ajisen. they also celebrated my birthday, so sweet of them and they bought my favourite cake, strawberry shortcake!! hehe..

yesterday my cousin, bro, aloy and baokun celebrated my birthday seletar dam. had supper at jalan kayu prata shop before we went there. my thanks to them. =)

21-02-09

2009-02-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

was actually meeting cheyenne and ailing today. planned to go out and shopping and dinner. last night, she msg me saying that she haven got her pay. so instead of going out, go to her house pay mahjong and she cook. in the end, i didnt go because i was freaking PISSED with work and jacky.

was already pissed on yesterday with work then didnt go class. boss keep directing at me during briefing in the morning for the past few days. TU LAN!! just now went to pick jacky from school, realise his head got a big BUMP!! at that moment, my temper flare up. i started to slam things and throw temper.

2009-02-17T20:43:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really hate men. men that i know, they are all jerks except 1 or 2.

at first, they will flirt with you and be nice to you. you know, saying those mushy mushy words or some words praising you and everything. when you think they like you then you will be nice to them BUT you are wrong. they just want some entertainment from you and treat it as nothing had happen after that. what the fuck. they just treat you as a toy and play around! they only ask you out when they feel like to.

sometimes i feel that i can be better than men because they dont know how to treat a woman well and give them what they wants!!!

somtimes i really hate my love life, it really sucks like anything. men i have seen and been with together are really JERKS!! really SICK! i think i wont find a GOOD BOYFRIEND/ HUSBAND because my life really SUCKS!!! why god just dont give me GOOD man to be with?!?!?!

now i cant be bother anymore. you wanna flirt with me? then i'll just entertain you.

to girls out there, beware of MEN. some men treat you nice because they wanted something from you. after they got what they want, they will ditch you aside and will not care about you. if you like a guy, please test him out first to know whether he's true to you.

14-02-09

2009-02-15T06:42:00.003+08:00

stayed at home whole day yesterday. was freaking BORED!!

went for driving lesson. took a cab there because went out of the house late. =.= was pretty scare and nervous. at start he teached me all the basic. e.g: gears and changing of gears, clutch, brake and accelerator. then asked me to step clutch and practice changing of gears. about 5-10 mins later, he asked me to drive around. at that moment i really cold sweat lo. always dead car. it's always my clutch problem. he says that i release too fast. hai~ i think my legs really too short le. when i step fully on the clucth, i'm like tip toeing lo. diao~ must JIA YOU!!! =)

13-02-09

2009-02-14T02:54:00.003+08:00

met cheyenne and ailing for late dinner so call supper after my class last night.

went to cineleisure for pasta mania. had pasta combo which come with soup and drink. hmmm... my favourite cream base!! yummy~! we chatted alot of things. then they say they had a surprise for me! oh~ i was wondering what is it. they bought friendship rings!! i really love it..!! feeling guilty. never get them anything for valentine. then they i can make up during my birthday outting by wearing something sexy as they always laugh at me having BIG breast. too bad i have decide to wear tube dress. muhahahahaha~ then we went to swensen for dessert!! ICE CRFEAM!! ailing still finish her apple crumble which is for 2-3 pax!!!

woh.. was SUPER FULL after all the food and dessert!! makes me sleepy!! =.=

zzzZZZzzz~

12-02-09

2009-02-12T02:32:00.000+08:00

was darn shagged this week. got class everyday except today. went out dinner with jansen @ ichiban, amk hub. the waitress gave us counter seat. was sitting in front of a cute guy. he's one of the chef. hehe. kept peeping at him though. hehe.

he bought a small gift for me which i didnt expect he would. i know he likes me but i dont like him at all and i have make very obvious hint to him that i dont like him...!! but he seem not to care. well anyway i dont care. i only treat him as a gd friend of mine. hoping he would give up soon!!

07-02-09

2009-02-08T23:20:00.003+08:00

went out with william, gary and their friends last night to jb secretly without anyone know in my family because if they do, i gonna be dead. hmm didnt know william and gary are very close friends and i have forgotten who the hell was. LOL.

together 3 cars with walkie-talkies, we set off to jb!! all 3 cars had car washed but william wanna change the tinted wind screen so he left his at workshop. gary and his friends wanna go massaging while william brought me out a walk and supper together. SINFUL FOOD!!! 0.0 prata, kebab and fried chicken drum!!

after supper we went back to the workshop, car was done but the 4 guys are not done yet. -.- waited at the workshop for them as william changed his wiper and carpets. decided to drive around for while but no where to go plus we dont know the place well so kinda dangerous, end up we went back. finally they called us, saying they are at the workshop while we are a few metres away from them. went to eat 'lok lok' which i dont know what is it. it's like a car shop selling food. after that, they went to have wanton mee. i shared with william, cant eat much. it's already 4plus am then. *YAWNS* reach home 5plus. zzz..

woke up at 9plus, had breakfast and watched anime but feeling sleepy. went to take a nap. was so tired. yawns. kanna woke up by my bro's call at 3 plus pm. zzz.

went to watch movie with bro, cousin and his gf and baokun. watched benjamin button. a very touching and sad life story, meaningful though. it's about he was born old and then gradually to young and die. but his heart and brain follow his age. );

03-02-09

2009-02-03T23:00:00.001+08:00

went out with gerald for dinner after work. met him outside control station @harbourfront. was on the phone with cheyenne and the moment i step out of the station i noticed him and he noticed me too. he's a bit slightly taller than me, look a bit different from the pics.

he was smiling at me when he saw me and i was still on the phone with cheyenne. was laughing with cheyenne because i told her about him when i saw him and everything i see about him. quickly hang up the phone with cheyenne.

he wanna dine at hong kong kim gary but he only know the # but dont know where is it. -.-''' then we walked around and search, realised that gerald didnt know habourfront and vivo is linked!! -.-'' finally, we found KIM GARY. walked in together, he chose the seat. we both take some order and end we ordered spicy noodles. i told him that hong kong cafes' noodles are usually maggie mee, then he say this one is different so i believed him but end up it is MAGGIE MEE!!!

after a full-filling dinner, we walked abit to digest our tummy. went up to the top level, open air. we then sat next to the tree and started talking, but i felt that something was crawling on me. A BIG ANT...!!! decided to move place, he helped me carry my bag because i was jumping here and there. afraid there's still ANT on me!! ARGHHHHHH!!

then we sat on a bench under the shelther. he's very quiet and i'm the one who keep talking.. -.-'' i think he must be thinking how come this joyce very chatter box, talk non-stop. hai~ anyway i can say he's really a gd listener.

about 10pm, i told him i wanna go home le, tomorrow got work. then he say he wanna send me to hougang station which i dont know why he say hougang station but i just say that i can go home myself. somemore he stay very far, woodlands. i kept rejecting him but end up, i decided to be nice and let me send me all the way to serangoon mrt. so sweet of him. =)

i hope to go out with him again. =x

02-02-09

2009-02-02T19:46:00.000+08:00

today is first night class at SHRI. attended the first module, Fiancial Instuition Services. was late for class, doing my filing and stuff that i forgotten about my class. hehehe.

rushed there. got lost at raffles place mrt station, didnt know how to go there. called for help, roland told me how to get there. got into the room, i think the class consist of about 30 people? hmm.. was kinda scare when stepping into the class. a few mins later, a indian man step in and talk with his strong indian accent. it makes wanna laugh out loud. sometimes i dont even understand what he's talking about.

01-02-09

2009-02-01T20:24:00.001+08:00

celebrated cheyenne's birthday today with my sis, my son, ailing and ME. supposed to be yesterday la but she cant make it.

picked up cake from prima deli @ heartland mall, got 15% discount thanks to my mom!! hehe. bought plates and fork @ cold storage. planned to go to the explanade roof top to celebrate. the night scenery there is FANTASTIC!

thought i'll be late but end up reaching there early. met ailing first at bodyshop raffles city. bought a gift set. waited at city hall mrt because cheyenne's gonna be late. end up she met us at topshop in raffles city. shop for a bit then decided to go for dinner at waraku at MS for japanese cusine!! end up, we are all SO lazy to walk there so we settle it at sakei sushi. we had sake, 24 color plate, 4 red plate and 2 chawanmushi!! darn FULL.

after dinner went to charles keith as cheyenne wanna go toliet. bought a pair of shoe which i wasnt suppose to during the chinese new year period. only realise it after i sat down and rest while the others are still trying shoes and stuff as trying is FREE.. took some pics as well. went to zara for shopping. after that we went to EXPLANADE ROOF TOP!! celebrated her birthday there and took many many LAME PHOTOS!! hahaha..

01-02-09 (pics)

2009-02-01T13:01:00.001+08:00

24-01-09

2009-01-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i more day to new year. hee.. ANG BAOS!!! $$$

went to woodlands just now with aloy(driver), baokun, my cousin, bro, my son and me. the guys wanna do some last min shopping. we had early dinner first my son was complaining that he is hungry!! companied the guys shopping. kinda boring. walked between level 1 and 2. -.-'''

about 9plus we went hougang mall as my bro need to do some more shopping while i went to mail some letters for my company. went to 'sasa', bought eye liner and a very nice sweet and yet light perfume.. hmmmmm i love it.. ^_^ after that they went to KFC and they eat some more!! sweat~ i didnt eat at all, still feeling full. my son had cheese fries.

am feeling tired now...zzzz

20-01-09

2009-01-21T04:39:00.003+08:00

shit! cant sleep man. now it's only 4plus A.M!!!!!! -.-''' feeling darn tired but not sleepy. what the hell. dont know what's wrong with me. i hated it when i cant sleep because i love to SLEEP. haha...

went to courts with bro last night. he said that courts have given him free $300 worth of vouchers so of course i would believed that the vounhers is courts one la but when we reached there, they gave a piece of printed vouchers which is not for use in courts!! what the hell. it's darn STUPID lo. kanna bluff. -.-

manage to catch this guy, gerald lam. hmm haven seen him before but from what i know he's quite good catch. hehehe. looks, he got it. education, he got it too. just that he's a bit short! 1.6m only. hahaha.. but maybe i can consider him. hmmm one more thing is that he stay very FAR. woodlands!! -.-''

19-01-09

2009-01-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

hmmm today was a busy day for work.. so tired!!! chinese new year is getting nearer and nearer so we are getting busier and busier!

msg that old man asking him when he wanna watch the red cliff but NO reply. what the hell. told me that he wanna watch with me but in the end, it's just words and NO ACTION.. fuck care him already.

just came back from drink with a friend. our first meeting today, make quite a lot of complain about the prata he had at jalan kayu, fussy guy and definitely a dangerous driver!

18-01-09

2009-01-18T20:07:00.006+08:00

yesterday was my off day too.. one shot two days off. hehehehehehe. feeling so tired and sleepy man. slack whole day at home. didnt wanna do anything!!! zzzzzzz..

today still feeling darn tired but gotta clear up my room and stuff. throw quite alot stuff away and jacky's toys. hehehe...

sian sian sian.. tomorrow gotta go back and work man... it's gonna be very busy since new year's getting nearer. everyone is coming to the bank and change money, withdraw money and encash cheque. busy busy busy~

zzzzzzzzzz.. and soon i'm going to BED!! hahahahha....

16-01-09

2009-01-17T07:16:00.000+08:00

hehehe.. finally i got my PDL!!! yesterday was my off day, so i wake up darn early to the driving centre. waited about an hour even though i reached there super early.. sleepy man. bought ah siao teochew mince pork noodle home, very nice one. my favourite!

went for the facial at 6pm,. i do my collagen facial while my sis took the first trial facial which is cheaper!!! hahaha. eileen msg me when i was halfway through my facial so cant reply.
she last min msg me and asked me whether wanna meet up for dinner and of course i cant make it la.

took a cab home, rushing for time because i'm meeting cheyenne and ailing 10pm at clark quay for clubbing. quickly dressed up and put make up. in the end i'm the first to reach and they took so long to come. was sitting by the river and have a small snack and drink while waiting for them. it's so windy. feel so lonely suddenly because all around are all couples. what the hell.
went to zirca and zouk. so sad. the music is all trans which we dont like so in the end we headed home at 2plus.. sian.

10-01-09

2009-01-10T15:32:00.002+08:00

just reached home. so tired, so bored!! dont feel like doing anything.

didnt update my blog. totally no mood!! i love him, yet what i get in the end? BETRAYED! now i really hate him!!!!!! how i wish i could just DELETE him from my memory.

2009-01-03T11:13:00.000+08:00

03-01-09

2009-01-03T10:08:00.000+08:00

was working this morning, feeling damn tired. thanks to my dad having some kind of family meeting(involving money) so late in the night when i was going to sleep already! sian.

on last sunday night, my dad said someone in our house steal his money which we dont know whoever did it but i suspect is my ah ma and was taken on sat. reasons: sat(morning) i was working, bro is sleeping, mom and sis went to malaysia so left my dad and ah ma home but dad was in the living room busy playing his maple. (afternoon-night) i came home bath and changed with my son then went out with my bro till night time. in the end, left my dad and ah ma at home. as usual my dad will be busy playing maple because nobody is snatching computer with him but i dont know what my ah ma doing la. anyway she also has my dad's room key. plus nobody knows where dad kept his money. monday night, was talking to mom about this incident in her room. she told me that they kept it behind the curtain which i thought they left it on the table. =/ also on a few occasion, my ah ma went into my parents room before when nobody was home. reasons: cigarette ash was found where my dad dont smokes in the room, if he does that he's gonna get his ass kicked!! haha. the room's wasnt locked when they came back because they always locked their room's when they went out. my mom also told me ah ma called my aunt and told her that i am the one who the took money!!!!! what the FUCK! this really makes me HATE her even more. i have been treating her very nice still, ever since she disfigure my FACE!!!!! i'll never forget what happened on that very day. now i cant be bother with her anymore. it's not worth it!!

took a nap after i reached home..ZZZZ.. SLEEPY... was actually gonna have dinner with cousin(kel) but my uncle and aunt said they wanna play mahjong since bro and i was home. then we susgested to have dinner first. hmm my uncle was thinking having dry noodles but aunt complain saying that's it's too oily and unhealthy to always eat that. then uncle suddenly said that he miss my cream base spaghetti and aunt start her complaining again. damn funny. uncle then complains loudly 'alamark, this cannot that cannot eat!!!!' . LOL. in the end, we had dinner together at bedok which my parents finally decided to join us and i have took a few photo after dinner. hahaha.

reached home, was feeling sleepy. i asked my mom to play on my behalf but she doesnt want. =( also most fall asleep when waiting for my uncle and aunt. finally, they came, we start playing and ends at about 2am. in the midst of session, we ordered some snacks/supper from macs as my cousin(flora) was feeling hungry. end of whole session, i lose money. +( uncle won the most and aunt was complaining and complaining because she lose her money to her husband.. hahahaha.

02-01-2009

2009-01-02T23:00:00.001+08:00

today is my first off day for the month. i thought it's good to stay at home and rest but it's SOOOOO boring!! it's makes think of him and miss him even more. what the hell. in the end i cant take it anymore, i MSG him!!! OMG~! cant believe i actually did that but he didnt reply. then i became anxious and msg him again. finally, he replied me saying that he's busy with work so i didnt msg him anymore.

called my sis about 12plus but she didnt pick the call. was hungry and wanted my sis to 'tao pao' food for me and my son. in the end, i cook maggi mee. my sis called my dad when she finish school, asking whether she can go ang mo kio to eat with friends but of course, my dad wont allow her. my dad is very strict with her plus she's that kind of 'daddy's/mummy's girl' so she would listen to everything they said. luckily, i'm the other way round. haha~ i'll do what i like and doesnt care what my parents say or whether they are happy anot. well i'm a rebellious kid. haha.. after a while i called my sis back and told her that i can tag along with her and her friends for lunch if she dont mind. definitely she wont mind because if my dad knows that i'm tagging along then he will allow her to go out with her friends.

we went to 'sumo house' @ ang mo kio for lunch but me and my son didnt eat anything because we are full thanks to the maggie mee! we chatted while and laughed along together. i treated them lunch but they didnt want and insisted to pay me back but i rejected and rejected and rejected. in the end, they gave up because i managed to convince them that next time they can treat me back when we meet up.

next stop, we went to ang mo kio hub but on our way there, huiqin bought lunch for her grandmother and i bought a pants for jacky. =D he was so happy that he was smiling all the way.. we went to ntuc to buy some stuff and a little shopping in the mall. in the mist of our shopping, zihui's tuition teacher called her, saying that she's at her place now then she said she'll go home now. after a while her mom called... oops~ after that we all quickly head home together.

was tired when reached home.. watched a small portion of transformer which my bro is playing. took a shower after my sis and son had done. took a super short nap.

woke up and went to my mom's room to watch tv. went out dinner together with my mom, sis and my son. dine @ serangoon garden coffee, aston's wastern, limited space but we still managed to find a table and seats. ordered but they took some time to deliver. busy night for them. we all had pork chops. pork chop night~! haha.
when we going to finish our food, my mom's sis and her little small family joined us but only her son eat with us. they were planning to go chomp chomp and eat. and oh.. my mom's sis husband can really crack funny jokes on my sis because she's known as 'lao ren jia'.. hahaha. then he asked my sis whether she bought along her teeths in order to eat the pork chop.. LOL. it's damn funny. but my sis's brain is working darn slow that she didnt catch what he was talking about. OMG!

i msg him when i was having dinner, asking him whether he could meet up with me as i really miss him and wanted to see him so much. he replied, asking me whom i'm with? so i thought i would had a chance to meet him but... in the end, he told he had a con call later. what the hell. i didnt give up and continue to msg him saying that i only want to see him a while but he didnt reply anymore. i was so angry~!! it really make me hate him so much. why cant he just make time for me?? sometimes i really wonder what he says is true or just lies... anyway, this is a good because i wont miss him that much anymore. now i just gonna make myself real busy and not to think about him so much. feeling just so hurt right now...........

01-01-09

2009-01-01T18:03:00.003+08:00

hmm today will my first post for the year. well i have not blog for very long, say, about 2-3 years??

well, today didnt really sleep much, my body timing has already set to wake in the morning. haha. got home this morning about 2plus. was damn tired so the moment i step home, i quickly changed and SLEEP...

BUT.. before i sleep, i msg him. telling him i would choose to leave him, i love him and everything and that's my last msg to him. hmm.. it's a long msg, i think about 5sms..? hopefully, i would be able to forget him because i just love him too deep. actually i was hoping that he could marry me really soon. he's my everything. although we have been together for less than a year but we shared alot things together but that would never gonna happen. he's engaged with a girl before i met him yet he didnt tell me about it until we have been together for a about 5-6 months later. that's was when i was already deeply in love with him. he said he loved me and didnt bear to tell me that he was engaged because he knew that if he told me, i would leave him from the very begining. the day before yesterday, i met him and i passed him a present i have make for him. i stitch a pic of precious moments and make it a pillow case for him. i hope he really love the present. =D

now i'm missing him badly. but i think i'm going to get use to it soon. hopefully...

now i'm getting ready for dinner with my bro, cousin, aloy, baokun and my son. japanese village here we come..!! hahaha.. not going to eat alot, trying my very best to slim down for CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! hehe.. now i have manage to slim down about 2-3 kgs but i wanna slim down more.. jia you~! hahaha..