hmm today will my first post for the year. well i have not blog for very long, say, about 2-3 years??

well, today didnt really sleep much, my body timing has already set to wake in the morning. haha. got home this morning about 2plus. was damn tired so the moment i step home, i quickly changed and SLEEP...

BUT.. before i sleep, i msg him. telling him i would choose to leave him, i love him and everything and that's my last msg to him. hmm.. it's a long msg, i think about 5sms..? hopefully, i would be able to forget him because i just love him too deep. actually i was hoping that he could marry me really soon. he's my everything. although we have been together for less than a year but we shared alot things together but that would never gonna happen. he's engaged with a girl before i met him yet he didnt tell me about it until we have been together for a about 5-6 months later. that's was when i was already deeply in love with him. he said he loved me and didnt bear to tell me that he was engaged because he knew that if he told me, i would leave him from the very begining. the day before yesterday, i met him and i passed him a present i have make for him. i stitch a pic of precious moments and make it a pillow case for him. i hope he really love the present. =D

now i'm missing him badly. but i think i'm going to get use to it soon. hopefully...

now i'm getting ready for dinner with my bro, cousin, aloy, baokun and my son. japanese village here we come..!! hahaha.. not going to eat alot, trying my very best to slim down for CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! hehe.. now i have manage to slim down about 2-3 kgs but i wanna slim down more.. jia you~! hahaha..